I'm watching her

First of all I'd like to thank Tat once more for allowing me to experience the fun of a paid account. I really enjoyed it and I can't believe it's actually been a full year xD So thanks TatTat <3 I truly enjoyed it :]

But now it's expired, so I will be making my account switch. I just um...I've wanted a new account for a while, for different reasons. Just cuz...you know? xD

So last night I watched Titanic for the first time. I don't know why it took me so long to see it, but I did watch it.

I am a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge sap, okay? I cried at all the Harry Potter movies. I cried at a Pokemon movie once, I just cry at movies. The movie I can remember where I cried the most was probably "Christmas Shoes" But um....to my surprise, I did not cry like I was expecting to. I actually managed to hold it back quite well (resulting in a major headache) I probably would have cried if I had watched it alone. I hate crying in front of others.

However the movie made me extremely depressed. Like I said, I'm a sap. When I watch movies where tons of people die, and I have to sit through them struggle to try and live, that makes me extremely uncomfortable. So for the 45 minutes where all these people were dying, or trying not to die, I couldn't stand it. The worst part was, I couldn't tell myself that this was just a movie. It upsets me to know that people actually went through something very similar, that this wasn't just a movie.

The two parts I could not stand was when the boat lifted all the way up into the air, and when that one boat went back and was paddling through tons of dead bodies.

I was surprised at how the love story didn't tear jerk  me as much, but now that I start thinking about it...I'm pretty depressed Jack died. Even though I knew he was going to die, he was still a lovable character and such.

Titanic is going under the list of movies that I enjoyed, but probably wouldn't choose to watch again. It just left me too depressed afterwards. Not the movie itself, but the knowledge that this actually took place, that people actually had to die and stuff.

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AND I STILL CAN'T GET ONTO MY STUPID AOL MAIL. THIS IS SO UNFAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *poutpout*

a;jflkdsfjlkdsfjldasfl OHMY.GOD.

I cannot check my AOL mail, which means there are certain things that went on in the accounts I have joined, and I do not know about them. This makes me so nervous. I want to check my stupid mail

Um...I'm so glad I'm home right now, typing here <3 I am so thrilled for the weekend. Lovely stuff going on.

And I love Sai, love her to death and beyond. But but but D: she was making a surprise for me and she posted it on DA. I am subscribed to her on there, so it showed up immediately in my messages. I did not see everything, because I realized it was not yet ready for my eyes. But now I feel bad ;3; I saw the thumbnail, and just as I clicked on it I realized she probably wanted me to not see it until she was done, so I immediately scrolled down before the picture came up and I saw that she said it was a secret so then I exited out and stuff.

You have no idea the amount of self control that took ಥUಥ I am a fanart whore. I usually try to keep it to myself, but I crave it so badly D; So I actually had the tab open for a while and I wanted to scroll up just for a "peek" and I eventually decided that I shouldn't look. But so true on the fanart thing. It's like...Headset itself is my crack and Headset fanart is my alcohol/tobacco. And you can really tell because recently about 95% of my postings have been Headset related, even a little bit.

I need to make sure I balance out my posts on my new account :[ or at least do what I did in the early days and put it under a cut or something.

Also, three people have found and friended my new account :D I'm really excited for Saturday. One for making the switch, and two Sai might be able to scan all those Headset drawings she keeps talking about. I had quite the lovely conversation with her last Sunday <3

So I'm super happy right now xD I got another piece of Headset fanart, and this one made me hyperventilate like I did when Sukii posted her gift for me.

I love each and every bit of fanart people draw for me. But seeing an actual scene from the story play out is something that just blew my mind today. To see the AyakaxKaito scene from chapter 6 drawn out in manga format, it just makes me want to squeal.

Sometimes I feel really really spoiled, getting all this fanart and stuff. xD And on the subject, does anyone know of a place where I could look for people to draw out the story as a webcomic? Is there a site for that or anything? Just wondering.

I've been thinking of maybe posting Headset on DA...but that's pretty selfish on my part xD especially if I add "FEEL FREE TO SHOWER ME WITH FANART" in the comments. Hmm...but I am probably going to start by posting my story on DA, because....you never know x3

But I showed this to my parents, my mom first. And she was like "Isn't that a little risque?" She didn't realize that Kaito was half dead and she thought Ayaka was sitting on his lap xD then I explained to her what was really going on. When I told my dad how Kaito was beaten, he thought I was crazy xD He asked me where I come up with this violent stuff and said that I sort of worry him.

I am going to flaunt that picture at school tomorrow <3 I always flaunt every new piece of fanart I get. Like yesterday Sai drew me that kissu piccie, and today I had it out in class. Some of my friends looked at it and they thought I was nuts. I can't wait to see their reactions tomorrow <3 They already know I have severe issues, but I'm wondering if this piece will really throw them off. It is quite a bloody scene after all :[

alkjfldsjflkdsfla I wish I did not have school ;3; why can't it be the weekend already? That's the hardest thing about going BACK to school. The weekends actually count D:

Okay so my new account is pretty much completely ready <3 I'll be making the switch sometime on Saturday. I know that Yuffie and Lizzie have already found it. Really it's not that hard to find :'D because I made the mistake of filling out the interests thing.

Um um um. When I got home, I couldn't get on the computer because my mom was using my desk ;3; and then I had an orthodontist appointment, so that kept me off even longer. However when I did get on, I was shocked at the amount of people who posted in the Headset topic at GW.

As I was getting on, I didn't have plans to start chapter 7 today because I figured it was pretty late. But all the support....makes me want to start it ;3;

Also Mikari, I'm posting your Part 2 gift tonight, just because I can. I expect much flaming to come my way xD Here it is:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4468111/1/

I don't know FF.net's policy on character bashing and stuff, but if it gets deleted, I'll just post it here :]

I've been feeling really out of it lately. Hard to describe, but it makes me sort of depressed. If I can write or do something to take my mind off of it, I feel better. But just sitting there, especially in class, I have time to think about it and it upsets me. But what's upsetting me? I don't know, I just feel odd for no reason. I'd like to blame my period, but I don't think it's all that. Mmm who knows? I just feel so mellow these days, not exciting or...whatever. At least this is making me write more so that the Headset chapters aren't so spaced out.

Last night I think I had a dream about Headset. It's been on my mind so much now that several people at GW are reading it (and yet I still can't bring myself to make the topic ;3; ) but this unknown feeling has even affected my Headset thinking. Headset in itself is suddenly much more mellow. When I think of Ayaka and Kaito's relationship, it's so much calmer and easier than how I thought about it a few days ago. But I don't want it to be that way. Their relationship is rocky and not mellow and stuff ;3;

Everything is just suddenly mellow with me O____. I'm so confused D:

I am so pleased <3 I started writing chapter 6 a few hours ago and it's turning out lovely. This is probably the first chapter that I can really say I like a lot better than the old one. It's awesome.

My goal is to finish it tomorrow and then start on chapter 7. Of course I really doubt I'll be able to do that, but that's my goal.

There's something I added in this chapter that makes it extra special. I'm not going to give it away, but it makes me happy happy happy when I think about it :'D

I don't want to rush through chapter 7, but I'm excited because in chapter 8 comes NATASHA <33333333 now it's finally getting good >///////<

Ryo is just as utterly insane and messed up in the head as his sons, he's just slightly more mild (unless you seriously piss him off). Well the one thing that he can't stand is being told that he resembles his kids (and they hate that too) however I purposely prove that the four are very much alike. Kodomo No Jikan, just finished the last episode ;D, has inspired me to show how much Ryo was like his sons at their age.

For a while now I've been planning to reveal the adults as kids in Part 3. I had the idea a while ago to show Ryo remembering his childhood and how he met the twins and Natasha. And I'm also planning for Natasha to flashback her life growing up with Ayaka. Part 3 is pretty much character development. You find out a lot of things about the characters, like their pasts and stuff. And of course there's Aya xD

I'm trying to um...not spoil as much. I've spoiled a lot xD I still plan to make posts with my thoughts, because it feels good to let it out. But I'm going to try to break myself of the habit of talking to Sukii and being like "Hey guess what happens to Momoko in...."etc...I'll just learn to shut up and let people read for themselves :'D

And now for some...old ideas. This is stuff that I had originally planned to do, but instead ended up with something else.

I got my period last night and it HURT @.@ Did my body wait until high school to kick in this sort of pain? I've always had bad cramps on my period but last night was unreal. I was up at 11, feeling like someone was trying to rip my organs out of my body. I got up and took some medicine, as well as trying a heating pad. I did manage to get to sleep but I have never been in that much pain before.

 A while ago at a friend's party, one of the girls was saying how her cramps are so bad that really all she can do is curl up into a ball, that's how I felt last night until finally I knew that if I didn't do something to soothe the pain just a tad, I wouldn't get sleep. It was horrible, I was on the verge of crying.

I'm so very thankful that this is the weekend and I didn't get it on the first day like I had predicted. Like I said, I'm used to pretty painful cramps around that time of month, but what I experienced last night was way worse than anything before. I guess it's gotten better, since I made it through the day.

Oh, and I got whacked in the face on the way to Biology. This isn't the first time a complete stranger has hit me on accident, it happened twice last year, I think....I just have a knack for getting whacked/hit/attacked by stuff :[ But the good thing is, as mentally sensitive as I am, I can easily shrug off physical pain. I managed to just keep walking. I'm very glad I'm not the type to freak out over small injuries, it's one of the few features that I didn't inherit from my mom, who is very sensitive to physical pain.

The last time I actually cried because I was in pain was when my sister hit me in the head with a metal bat. Not to say that I haven't shed a tear in pain since then, because often when I'm hit in the face, my eyes just water ( I think it's some sort of natural reaction) But I'd be laughing those times, not actually crying in pain.

Okay, I'll admit I ALMOST cried last night, but I didn't :D I just sort of moaned and gasped and squeaked a little

Today it started pouring in 6th period. Of course it was still storming by the time I was going to the bus. I decided to cut across the courtyard instead of taking my chances with the traffic inside the buildings, but I ended up leaping into this HUGE puddle xD I accidentally completely soaked my shoes and socks, and these were my nice white ones too :[ Thank god at least the shoes were old and not my new ones. So I went home wet :D

I'm worried ;3; Word was being weird yesterday and it ended up kicking me out. I can't remember if I had saved the rest of chapter 5 or not....I hope I did because I don't wanna retype it Dx Even though that would actually be good for me because so far chapter 5 SUCKS HARD :[ I'm seriously getting disappointed with myself here. I stopped writing Part 2 of Headset to make Part 1 BETTER, not WORSE >/////////< *headdesk* I need classes or something. I specifically need some sort of class or tutor for writing help.

Also I've figured out on DA, that if you don't delete ALL of your messages at the same time, they won't delete. That's weird o3o

This came just off of the top of my head because I talked to Leaf a minute ago but um.........I've been thinking about maybe actually posting Headset on GW, like in it's own topic. I was always afraid to because I didn't think anyone would like it at all. But...people are sort of starting to like it, I think. It probably has something to do with me and Sukii, like my shameless advertising in my set and me all Sukii always discussing it.

I'm still hesitant though :<

But but, I think I think I think I think I think I think I THINK I had a Headset dream last night. I can't say for sure, but when I got a knife to cut my hot pocket this morning, it made me think of something that could have possibly been a dream

Mmm I need to update it *3* I need to do the chapter before I start getting homework and stuff.

Actually what I'm more pleased about other than the fact that people don't hate the story is the fact that people don't hate Ayaka. I was afraid she'd be considered as one of those boring main characters who's annoyingly nice and stuff.  Like Ayaka really does sort of have that angel heart because she's trying to befriend three boys who want her dead and usually most people would run away from that. She isn't a perfect character, she does have her flaws, yet she still is that type of sweet that bores a lot of people. But people seem to like her and that makes me happy ;3; I love Ayaka even if she is a little Mary-Sue-ish. She's my baby <3

Do I have to make a post about my day? :<

People always say that high school is the best four years of your life, but to me it just seems like school- I'm trying to avoid getting run over or stepped on, and I'm trying not to fail classes.

I don't like it :[ it's huge, there's too many people, I wake up at 5:30, there's too many people, upperclassmen are really weird, and there's way too many people for my tastes. I wish I could be at one of those schools with just a few hundred people or so. Maybe it's because I'm so anti-social that I don't like it, but I'm ready for the first break.

Or maybe it was because the whole day was pretty much spent over simply reading the same rules again and again and again. Still, I don't like being in school when everyone else is still on vacation. Actually a part of brain in the back of my head keeps telling me that this was just a one time thing and that I'll go to sleep and do whatever I want tomorrow.

I guess I had an okay day, it wasn't horrible or anything. But regardless of the grade, school is school, and as an adolescent child- I do not like school :< now I no longer have my favourite LA teacher. But I took my Headset notebook with me today and I looked at Sukii's drawings every time I felt dreary, they cheered me up a lot :]

Don't you hate it when you experience an amazing moment and only later do you realize that you should have taken time to savour it more? Man I really wish I had thought to record my reaction to Sukii's gift. It would have been epic. Not as epic as the gift itself, but still epic. I cried like crazy, it was the last comic that did me in.

MIKARI

Could you tell me whether or not you can make a set with four characters in it? They'd be fanart, so the background shouldn't be an issue for you.

I can't remember the last time I was this thrilled ಥUಥ Now I die happy

Last night we went to a party for someone my mom works with. I have to say getting there was quite something. We were leaving just as this HUGE storm was blowing in. It was windy, pouring rain, thundering, and lightning cracks were everywhere. I was scared to death and it didn't help that my sister kept screaming "OH MY GOD! DID YOU SEE THAT? DID YOU SEE THAT LIGHTNING BOLT?" I just put my head against my knees, closed my eyes and shoved my earphones in my ear. As much as it hurt my arms and ears, I did not change my position. I stayed that way for about thirty minutes until we came to a stop and there was this duck family walking across the road. They were so cute x3 I lifted my head for that. Then I went back into my little position for a while until finally my parents told me the storm was over.

The party itself was fine. They had a magician and this girl going into college talked with me about high school and stuff. They also had one of those big inflatables that you bounce on, and all the little kids (there were a lot of them) were in it, even after dark. Towards the end my sister and I tried to get in touch with our friends to see how bad the storm had been. One of my sister's friends said that the power went out and there had been a fire, but she was the type to over exaggerate, so I wasn't all sure about that. Maybe it was just dark, but we couldn't catch much damage. MY friend had been at the lake when the storm hit and she said one of the docks got totaled.

Of course I knew Sukii was going to finish early. I sorta wish I had been home last night. But as long as she gets on sometime today, I should be fine.

Oh, and in other news. I START SCHOOL TOMORROW ;3; I'll probably be in Math around this time...not sure.

I make icons *3*

50 Shugo Chara.
And 7 misc anime.

You know I'm actually pretty proud of these :3 especially Ami. Icons with her always turn out really good for some reason

Okay Yuffie, I know I keep saying this, but I swear to god I will join the community today @.@ feel free to kick me and remind me to do so.

I can't get the stupid thing to work. I took pictures, but they aren't coming onto the computer =3= I'm not sure what to do...the computer just isn't reading the chip thing at all.

In other news, I finished Eclipse. I'm so proud of myself for it <3 Yesterday I had no idea I'd finish it, I had planned to just read it when I did and I'd get Breaking Dawn wherever. Seriously I'm proud. I read pages 432-629, that's just barely under 200 in a day *3* And that's amazing for most people my age. It sounds like my parents are willing to take me out to buy BD tomorrow, if I can I also want to see if I can snag the Yen Press magazine with both Higurashi and Soul Eater.

I am SUCH a nerd/geek/dork :'D And god for whatever reason, I feel like I'm about to puke ;3;

Today I went through a practice run just to see if waking up at my usual time from last year is enough to get me at the bus stop on time. Hence the reason I'm wide awake at 6:30. Man I'm really going to miss waking up when the sun was actually up ;3;

Now I just have to find something to entertain me for the next three hours while I wait for the people who don't have school on Monday to wake up :'D